Monday

Something happened to me this week that I never thought would happen. I want to share it with you in hopes that you would be blessed and pray for me. It was Monday Morning. I went to the A/C supply house to fax my paperwork and get supplies for the day. As I was talking with the counter guys, they asked a question and I began whining and complaining about things in the company. You know what I mean, how the office and its procedures aren't the best, yada yada yada. I went on for about 12 minutes. Another Employee of mine came in. He was on call and I asked him about the weekend. I complained to him a little and then he said to me "did you hear about our salesman this weekend?" I didn't. Immideately I went into gossip mode. "Did he quit, did they fire him?"

My coworker responded "He Died saturday." My heart sank in a way I have never felt. This man was about 55 years old. He was my service manager at one time and I called him for alot of technical questions. He was always polite and a really nice guy. He then became a salesman and we spoked frequently. I would write up repairs and replacements and he would call me about them to get details.

I didn't believe this man to be a christian, and I never shared the gospel with him. Monday morning was a life changing experience. I hear in sermons how life change drastically at a moment in time, but ive never really experienced that. I never thought it would happen to me. The sadness and guilt I felt was tremendous. I was intensely sad to the point of tears over his death and extremely guilty because I had many oppurtunities and I never opened my mouth.

Something a christian brother said disturbed me. He said "you know, because God is sovereign, that means it wasn't a part of Gods plan for you to share with him." He said this to comfort me and I appreciate his effort, but this saying has bad implications. I would agree that God Deecreed and allowed me NOT to share with him. But the main point is this, Does the scripture command me to share or not to share? The reaveled will of God in his word Is that I should have.

The scripture is also clear that if we confess our sins he is faithful and just to forgive us. I belive that and I have asked God to forgive me and this is also a new day, another chance, and another oppurtunity. I also am NOT denying the eternal security of a believer. I am speaking about the Christian responsibility aspect. I share this with you in hopes that you would learn from this. Last year I had 5 people in my circle of friends who had friends die that they didn't share the gospel with and they felt so guilty. I never thought it happen to me.

One more little note. I have gotten squishy at work in general. I have been waiting for light to shine down from heaven and somebody to drop on their knees and ask me how to get to heaven rather than obeying Gods word and speaking the gospel with those that I love. If you open your new testament to the Gospels, in the context of Jesus and the relationships he makes (Yes I do believe relationships are important), Jesus is ALWAYS speaking truth. We never see him just talking about the weather with folks. This honestly is a convicting word to me. I heard a sermon recently with a man talking Jesus making relationships and I thought to my self that we never see Jesus making a relationship and sometime down the road speak truth. We never see him going on and on with lost buddies about politics and the weather. He is speaking truth all the time. Im not saying its sinful and wrong to speak about the ball game with lost friends, Im just saying we have to deal with the text honestly. Its my goal next year as I begin the NT again to take a closer look and jesus and his relationships, becuase our model of be friendly with somebody, talk about the weahter and such for a time, and later down the road share truth is not biblical.

Thank you for reading this. I would encourage to reach out to those around you that you haven't shared with. You may wake up one morning and there gone. Go serve your King.